Halloween

I just realized I didn't post anything yesterday. Kind of funny, because it was my day off, and I actually went out into the world and did something. My usual weekly appointments, and I also had a nice visit to the dentist. I say nice, because they complimented me on my teeth! Considering how much of a crappy brusher I was as a kid, this was the highest of compliments for me.

I discovered today that being empathetic is not always a good thing....when I started crying during a patient intake because of what they had experienced. Whew... Sometimes my job can be really, really emotionally difficult. I seriously wanted to sit there and bawl, but I managed to keep myself from going that far. A tissue was necessary, and my eyes were so red that my coworkers thought something bad had happened to me! I was never this emotional as a child...but being a parent really changes you. I cry at EVERYTHING. I sobbed earlier today while in my office because of a Facebook friend who lost his infant son today. Just reading his post had me in tears. I am definitely a crier, there is no doubting that. But I hope that my new patients were not offended or anything by my show of emotion. Sometimes I just can't help but feel their pain. And oh it hurts.

Today I took the kiddos out trick or treating....even though their school sent out an email asking people not to. I grew up trick or treating, and although there are still pagans who celebrate this as a religious holiday, the vast majority of people do not. It's a day to go out, dress up, and ring everyone's doorbells. More than likely my kids will be some of the only kids in their school to "celebrate," and I'm okay with that. At least they are having fun and actually getting out of the house. And free candy doesn't hurt, though with maybe a quarter to a half of it being non-kosher we make sure our friend Ron has a nice haul of his own of non-kosher candy and other treats. Like the bakery that gave out freshly baked chocolate cookies. Or the store that gave out caramel apples. Yeah he is getting the good stuff. 😄

We did make it for about 20 mins of trick or treating on the main street at the businesses. Even though I managed to get out of work on time, they didn't get home from school until after 4pm and then getting them into costumes was a chore. Ahh well....maybe next year I'll get off from work and we'll be able to get started earlier. It would be nice to be able to visit all of the businesses on both sides of the street.

After dinner we went out and rang doorbells. Most of our neighborhood doesn't celebrate. It's so unlike when I was growing up and every house on my street had a light on and was giving candy. Now you're going down half a street just for one house to be lit up. I need to find a new neighborhood for this...

Flu shot

I finally got my seasonal flu shot today! I usually get it much earlier on in October every year, but I had been waiting for my workplace to get them. Last night I even said to someone that if they weren't doing flu shots today that I was going to go to CVS tomorrow (on my day off) to get one. I was extremely excited and actually bounded down the hall when I heard one of my coworkers was doing the injections. It was actually really funny to have her give me the shot, and I must say she did a fantastic job. It didn't hurt almost at all when she did it, and my arm is only a tiny bit sore. Yay for vaccines!

I watched the end of the World Series last night, and Boston won. YAY! I had also watched part of game 3. Both games included several home runs, which was quite nice. It was kind of anticlimactic to have the last batter strike out, though. 😄 I felt bad for him, though. That must feel absolutely terrible. Not only losing the game and the World Series, but doing it by striking out. And I was very happy it did not go into extra innings. As it was I went to bed later than I wanted to!

2018 NICU Reunion

Every year I take the kids over to St. Elizabeth's for the annual NICU reunion. Families who had children in the NICU are invited to celebrate, and it's always around Halloween. People dress in costumes, and the kids have activities that they can do - fake tattoos, coloring, making Halloween decorations and masks, creating ghosts out of lollipops, and games. There's also ice cream and cake. And I'm known so well that the lady serving cake handed me the ice cream lid to show me it was kosher without me even asking. 😆

The kids had fun this year, as they always do.

Every year they also have professional photos taken. You can go up as many times as you'd like, but I only did one shot of the whole family. It was a miracle that everyone was looking at the camera and smiling!

I also look forward to seeing all of the doctors and nurses who I used to work with at St. Elizabeth's and those who also took care of me during my pregnancy, delivery and postpartum with the twins. Dr. Silvia Testa (pictured above) is the neonatologist who took care of the twins while they were in the NICU. I know I've posted about her and her husband previously on this blog. It's so special for her to see the twins and how much they've grown. I also ran into a patient of mine and her family (from when I worked at St. Elizabeth's on L&D) who had come to the NICU reunion last year as well. They recognized me within seconds, and it was so good to see them as well.

I took a bunch of pictures - mostly candid shots of the kids doing projects. Click here to see all of the NICU Reunion photos.

Post-Shabbos Post

Friday's thoughts:

We got a few delicata squash the other day, and Shmuel made them for Shabbos dinner. He wasn't sure what to do with them after they were cooked, so I basically covered them with brown sugar and cinnamon, then raisins. THEY WERE SO GOOD! And the kids were fascinated by the fact that they could eat the skin. Tzipora may have been a bit horrified by the idea and made faces. Gavriella, unsurprisingly, refused to touch it. She has no idea what she missed out on. Dovid ate it with gusto. For a child that eats everything with gusto and finishes at least twice as much food as I do at dinner, he doesn't grow so much. If I ate like he did at dinner, I'd look like a balloon! If we could trade metabolisms (excluding the diabetes part), we'd be all set. 😄

I had a great week at work with a lot of happy moments, but also a few sad ones. Luckily the happy moments for my patients usually outweigh the unhappy ones. I adore my patients, and seeing them glowing with joy when they become pregnant is one of the highlights of my life.

I'm looking forward to the weekend, even though I am working this weekend. I'm hoping I'll get a decent amount of work done so that I can be ahead for the week to come. And then on Sunday afternoon we'll be going to the NICU reunion at St Elizabeth's! This is something we've done every year since the twins were very little, and the kids look forward to it every year. I will make sure to share pictures of it afterward.

Saturday's thoughts:
Shock. Awe. Horror. None of these words even come close to what I felt when I read about the tragedy in Pittsburgh. Jews...targeted only because they are Jewish. Shot while praying on the Sabbath. Murdered while celebrating the recent birth of a child. How something like this can happen in the United States in the modern world is beyond me. But shootings continue happening. I don't think armed guards are the answer. I don't think arming citizens is the answer. But unfortunately I do not know what the answer is. Hate is like a disease that spreads and causes people to do unthinkable things. I am angry. I am extremely sad. And I cried....I cried for the people who lost their lives today, for their families and friends, and for the world in general. What have we come to?

Long Day of Not a Whole Lot

These days are the most difficult to write about - the ones where I'm at work for 10 hours, come home to eat dinner, and see the kids for a little while before it's time for them to go to bed. Not a whole lot happens (generally).

I came home today to Gavriella asking if she could take her new purse to school for show and tell tomorrow. She's so excited about it, and I just love that, so of course I said yes - with the caveat that she better not lose it.

I forgot to add that during my Costco trip yesterday I bought a whole bunch of candy for Halloween. They have full size candy bars for REALLY cheap - we're talking 30 full size candy bars for $12. If anyone actually comes to my house for trick or treating, they are going to be in for a happy surprise. Most years we get a handful of kids (or less), so we'll see what happens. If we start handing out good candy I'm wondering if word will spread and people will make a special trip. I guess we will see!

Last night I did my best friend's nails for her work Halloween party (which was today). I should have taken a picture of them. Maybe when she gets home (she lives next door to me) I'll have her do it so I can share it with you. We put on a Halloween-themed Color Street set called "Bloody Gorgeous". Last night I also wrapped all of the presents I got the kids at Costco. It took a while, but at least now the presents are hidden, and even if the kids find the hiding place they won't know what's there.

My task for this evening is actually going through my old records from the days when I was doing fertility cycles and backdating entries into this blog so I can have a more well-rounded idea of what actually happened. I may possibly co-author a book about fertility and want to have an easy way to reference things for myself. Feel free to peruse through the ancient history 2006-2008 once my posts go live.

Day off

Today was one of my rare days off, but of course no mom has a real day off. 😄 My day was spent in appointments and running errands. I feel like I accomplished quite a bit, in fact. And I even went to Costco and bought (way too many) Chanukkah gifts for the kiddos. Apparently I should not be left alone in Costco. Especially not when there are LOTS OF BOOKS. Nancy Drew, Hardy Boys, Judy Blume, and Beverly Cleary are going to take up an entire bookshelf of their own in December. I got a few other things for them, too, which I am sure they will like.

I also made it over to the thrift store, something I never get to do because I almost never have a Wednesday off. The Brighton Allston Congregational Church on Washington Street has a thrift shop that's only open on Saturdays and Wednesdays. I can't shop on Saturdays, and I haven't had Wednesdays off in a very long time. When I passed by there today (several times) it reminded me that they were open! I browsed a bit - found a cute Chanukkah-themed art piece that I did not buy but gave me a chuckle. They frequently have random Jewish-themed items in the shop that I've noticed in the times I've been there, and this time was no different. They also usually have a collection of eclectic purses, and my girls all love purses. So for a few bucks I can make someone in my household very happy. I found a really cute purse that had rainbow colors, and I knew it had to come home with me. It was very quickly claimed by Gavriella.

I also found an adorable apple-shaped dish which I thought would be cool to put honey in for Rosh Hashana. Inside it are red and white polished "rocks," which I had assumed would not be included in purchasing the dish, but the man at the register told me to take them as well.

I spent a total of $2 at the thrift store. Can you believe it?

On another topic, there was a comment on my last post asking about how we're managing with Dovid's diabetes. We're actually doing quite well. He started on a pump over the summer and it's connected with a continuous glucose monitor. They work together to keep his blood sugar regulated, which is pretty nice. It's not perfect - as no machine can be - but I think his blood sugars have been a lot better than they were before. He's not venturing up into the 300 or 400s nearly as much as he used to. Dovid has gotten used to the carb calculations, pump changes, sensor changes, and finger sticks that go along with being a diabetic. It's never going to be easy, but we're managing. I'll have to get a picture of him showing off his pump. He is very proud of it, though he needs to learn to stop playing with it. Anything that's electronic or has buttons (and this has both) fascinates him, so he messes around with it. At one point he changed the language to Spanish. I was quite unhappy with him that day. He's still not gaining weight well, but he probably never will. He's always been skinny and being a diabetic doesn't really help on that front. And he eats really well, so it's not that he's not eating enough. But he's doing all right, and so far I haven't had complaints from his teachers about behavior this year, so that's something. Little miracles.

10 months and counting

It's been far too long since I wrote on here, and I realized that I should write more accounts of what actually happens in my life. I used to have a diary as a kid, and I wrote in it every day. While I doubt I'd have to energy to update here every day, I'm going to make a concerted effort to do so. Here are my thoughts of the day:

I can't believe I've been at my "new" job for 10 months. I have never been so happy in a job. The environment is friendly, uplifting, and just plain fun. No one has a beef with anyone else. Everyone likes everyone else. We all get along. We are all friends. There are no cliques. It is like night and day from almost everywhere else I've ever been. I can easily see myself hanging out with these women on a regular day, and I'm a hermit. 😀 I've learned so many things and refined my knowledge in others. I feel confident in my ability to do my job. I enjoy what I do. I love and care about my patients (and they love me back, for the most part). I celebrate every pregnancy, but I also am sad when my patients graduate and go off to their OB/Gyn. I wish I could watch each of them grow (literally). And I can't believe that the patients who became pregnant when I started working there are now having their babies. It's uncanny!

Going back to my last blog post, which was back in January, I ended it with my desire to do two things:
#1 Doing an IUI for a woman...and having her get pregnant and have a baby!
#2 Calling someone with their positive (and increasing) beta.

Since then I have done several IUIs, and at least two of them have resulted in a pregnancy that is currently ongoing. One is at least halfway through her pregnancy, if not more, and one is more newly pregnant. So quite soon I will have completed #1.

As for #2, I have gotten to call MANY people with their positive and increasing betas! I've also been privileged to sit in on some OB ultrasounds and get to watch my patients' reactions to seeing their baby's heartbeat for the first time. That is without a doubt the best part of my job.

And amongst all of the happiness at my work, I am incredibly sad because one of my co-workers is leaving the practice to go elsewhere and today was our last day working together. She was my office-mate and taught me how to do my job. If I am considered a good IVF nurse, it's really because of her. I am going to miss her SO FREAKING MUCH, and I have no clue what I'm going to do being in that room without her wisdom, jokes, support, hugs, and smiling face. There is no one on earth who can replace her, and I can only hope that whoever comes in to take her spot is even half as amazing as she is. 💔

In other news, my a capella group (Honorable Menschen) had a concert this past weekend. Considering at least 3 of us had colds, I think we did a pretty incredible job. I was also extremely proud and honored to have my arranged version of Hallelujah LaOlam performed for the first time during the second half. Watch our concert below and enjoy!