Sunday, February 1, 2009

1 Year

That's right, folks. It's been exactly one year since my miscarriage. Since I had about 4 days prior notice, by the time Feb 1 rolled around I was actually relieved to be bleeding. I was afraid it might not happen on its own and I'd need a D&C. B"H Everything happened on its own, and because I was so early (5w 5d) it really was just like a slightly heavier regular period...with small uterine contractions. Had I not known about the pregnancy, I could totally imagine not realizing it was a miscarriage.

I actually "got over" the fact that I had miscarried rather quickly. Although I was completely and utterly devastated, I eventually realized that it was not meant to be. I was also told varying things about Judaism's thoughts on miscarriage, and they were all so helpful. I was so glad that I had finally gotten pregnant, but then I worried that it was just a fluke...that I might not get pregnant again, or that I'd just keep miscarrying. B"H Neither of those thoughts were correct.

So, here I am. 1 year later. At this point last year, I never could have imagined I'd be in my 3rd trimester with twins. And had you told me, I would've laughed in your face. :-)


WiseGuy said...

Wow....isn't it amazing how life can change? Or that it could be foretold that you would be back on the path of motherhood by the anniversary date?

Praying for good things for you and your babies and remembering the one who could have been here!

nancy said...

~hugs~ on the anniversary of your loss.

JamieD said...

The twists and turns of life are amazing - I'm glad you are in a good place while you are remembering today.

The Captain's Wife said...

Amazing isn't it? How one very sad time in our lives can lead to another joyous occasion?

Peeveme said...

What a difference a year can make. I'm sorry you experienced the loss but I'm so happy for where you are now.