Sunday, February 1, 2009

1 Year

That's right, folks. It's been exactly one year since my miscarriage. Since I had about 4 days prior notice, by the time Feb 1 rolled around I was actually relieved to be bleeding. I was afraid it might not happen on its own and I'd need a D&C. B"H Everything happened on its own, and because I was so early (5w 5d) it really was just like a slightly heavier regular period...with small uterine contractions. Had I not known about the pregnancy, I could totally imagine not realizing it was a miscarriage.

I actually "got over" the fact that I had miscarried rather quickly. Although I was completely and utterly devastated, I eventually realized that it was not meant to be. I was also told varying things about Judaism's thoughts on miscarriage, and they were all so helpful. I was so glad that I had finally gotten pregnant, but then I worried that it was just a fluke...that I might not get pregnant again, or that I'd just keep miscarrying. B"H Neither of those thoughts were correct.

So, here I am. 1 year later. At this point last year, I never could have imagined I'd be in my 3rd trimester with twins. And had you told me, I would've laughed in your face. :-)
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