New Blog and Other Things

First off, I want to say a big "oops" to myself for forgetting to "commemorate" the 2nd anniversary of my miscarriage. I guess it's a good thing that I forgot about it, because it means that I've moved really far past it. It honestly didn't even register in my mind the fact that the anniversary was coming up, nor did I think about at all it until it had already passed... Thank G-d there are so many good things in my life that I can focus on now rather than the sadness of my first pregnancy.

Next, I'm going to start a reviews blog! I haven't had the time to begin reviewing things, but I want everyone to save the link and put it in your google reader. That way when I finally have reviews and giveaways up, you can get right in! The website is www.thetwinners.com, and I made it myself. I hope you like it, but if you have any comments or suggestions please feel free to let me know!!!

1 Year

That's right, folks. It's been exactly one year since my miscarriage. Since I had about 4 days prior notice, by the time Feb 1 rolled around I was actually relieved to be bleeding. I was afraid it might not happen on its own and I'd need a D&C. B"H Everything happened on its own, and because I was so early (5w 5d) it really was just like a slightly heavier regular period...with small uterine contractions. Had I not known about the pregnancy, I could totally imagine not realizing it was a miscarriage.

I actually "got over" the fact that I had miscarried rather quickly. Although I was completely and utterly devastated, I eventually realized that it was not meant to be. I was also told varying things about Judaism's thoughts on miscarriage, and they were all so helpful. I was so glad that I had finally gotten pregnant, but then I worried that it was just a fluke...that I might not get pregnant again, or that I'd just keep miscarrying. B"H Neither of those thoughts were correct.

So, here I am. 1 year later. At this point last year, I never could have imagined I'd be in my 3rd trimester with twins. And had you told me, I would've laughed in your face. :-)

Miscarriage

I started bleeding today...onward and upward.

It's Over

My doctor called with my hCG results. The level only went up to 197 mIU/ml, which means that they either just haven't gone up very far or they're on their way down. Either way, this pregnancy is over and we're on to our next cycle. :-(